The mere thoughts that reside in my mind.
Published on June 12, 2005 By only a shadow In Personal Relationships
I never meant to hurt you. My intentions were completely pure… I care about you more than the world and the last thing I ever want to do is lose you as my best friend…

When I held your hand… it wasn’t to invoke jealousy… it was a way to see if there was any spark, any connection between us. But, I made you upset, confused, and I almost lost you as a friend… so let me explain.


This is for everyone else… I am not as dumb as I look people… When someone came up and asked me if I was holding Andy’s hand just to make Alex jealous; I said yes… just to test and see how true they really were. I wanted to see if they would tell him what I said. In the process, I hurt someone I truly care about because he misunderstood. I made myself look like I used him as a boy-toy. I made him feel terrible just to find out who my real friends are.

I know now that the few real friendships I have are very valuable… and I am going to work things out with Andy. I am going to tell him that I would never use him like that…

I know when I’m on the rebound guys… I was once. And it turned out to be the most disastrous event in my social life. And if anyone is still clueless… I’ve only had two relationships; one my freshman year, and one my sophomore year.

Do the math.


Andy… if you ever read this, I want you to know that I care about you… I would never hurt you. I would do anything for you… if you needed a kidney, I would give you mine (If we were compatible of course. : ) ) I never want anything to hurt the relationship we have now… especially my fucking stupidity.

We can see what the future holds.

I am sorry.

~Shadow

Comments
on Jun 13, 2005
i'm pretty sure every girl holds andy's hand just for the hell of it sometime in their high school career. At least thats what i told brandon when he asked me about it.