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only a shadow's Articles In Personal Relationships
June 23, 2005 by only a shadow
There is nothing sacred anymore. Friendship… Companionship… Intimacy… True love… Nothing is worth the fight anymore. So long ago When love was worth fighting for. When I thought love could conquor all It could never lose, never fall… I proved myself wrong Just to see that love turn against me And hate me with it’s caustic song So long ago When always meant forever Now forever is just another word And love doesn’t exist but in my dreams. If someone can just say goodby...
June 17, 2005 by only a shadow
The fear of hatred is on the top of your mind, I understand. We have identified many a relationships gone acerbic, giving both of our hearts doubt that we too would end up like those unmeaning, bitter people. Like I, like him, like close friends of ours… him and I do not want that hatred between us. Oh, I can assure you that I love you… we shall never let what we have convert to a bitter hatred in the end. I will do anything to earn your hand. I will not give up, or fall into a crue...
June 12, 2005 by only a shadow
Looking out and watching the rain Reminds me when I bathed in pain Blood and violence, nothing to spare There was nothing left of me to share I would lay in silence on the floor Wondering where to find an open door Looking and searching for that missing key How did this happen to me… Then there came an angel into my life Who grabbed my hand and put down my knife He made me feel beautiful, he made me see How wonderful this girl can be The angel that wiped away my tears Was t...
June 12, 2005 by only a shadow
I never meant to hurt you. My intentions were completely pure… I care about you more than the world and the last thing I ever want to do is lose you as my best friend… When I held your hand… it wasn’t to invoke jealousy… it was a way to see if there was any spark, any connection between us. But, I made you upset, confused, and I almost lost you as a friend… so let me explain. This is for everyone else… I am not as dumb as I look people… When someone came up and asked me if I was ho...
June 10, 2005 by only a shadow
I think I love you But I don’t know You are my best friend And am I willing to risk it all To have it be lost in the end? An unstable future lies ahead Should I risk my future, To be yours instead? You have always cared Always stayed by my side Wiping away the tears we shared Holding your hand, looking in your eyes Knowing that the future could destroy us … I’m sorry… But I just don’t want to say goodbye. I thought I loved you But now I know It’s the friendship Th...
June 5, 2005 by only a shadow
Crazy, but that’s how it goes Millions of people living as foes Maybe, it’s not too late To learn how to love And forget how to hate Mental wounds not healing Life’s a bitter shame I’m going off the rails on a crazy train I’ve listened to preachers I’ve listened to fools I’ve watched all the dropouts Who make their own rules One person conditioned to rule and control The media sells it and you live the role. Mental wounds still screaming Driving me insane I’m going ...
June 5, 2005 by only a shadow
Last year on this day, I wrote a very touching article dedicated to someone dear to me. Even though we had rough times, I miss his presence and company. I cried during his graduation. Especially when he read his valedictorian speech. He sent the speech he wrote to me before graduation, and I still have it. I shall begin my next article about the same. Graduation, the beginning of a new chapter of life. People cry, tears running down their cheeks because of the fear that people wo...
June 2, 2005 by only a shadow
I’ve made a promise to myself, and I will share this promise with the world… I will never kiss another fucking man whore for as long as I am alive. That’s all I have to say… ~Samantha
June 1, 2005 by only a shadow
The day I feel I can fly Is the same day I wish to die I sit here wondering if what I did was right I cry and pray with all my might I truly love you. I truly do. And hope you can believe me, When I say my feelings are true. I’ve loved only you forever… The others I believed to have cared for Were only useless things, To supress my thoughts of you and so much more So I’ve told you now, That I can see a chance for us. Please don’t hide away and watch This beautiful love t...
May 25, 2005 by only a shadow
Heaven… Please, shine your bright lights on me. I know I’m the outcast, the one that is not worthy of anyone’s presence… but just one time, shine your beautiful light on me. Let someone think in the back of his mind that I’m beautiful, that I’m perfect. For once Heaven, let me have someone that will love me. Have them actually care about me. Please Heaven, show them that I really am beautiful. Heaven, I do not ask for much. All I want is for you to shine your light on me… only o...
May 24, 2005 by only a shadow
My best friend confronted me… about how much he really liked me. Do you know how hard it is? To hurt someone that close to you by saying that you don’t care for them like that? BUT… even though I said I didn’t like him like that, there are a few things that I know I won’t do. 1. I won’t lead him on by saying, “I think we need to be better friends before we can start a relationship". 2. I won’t hang all over an ex-boyfriend when he’s around 3. I won’t tell him how much I care and n...
May 22, 2005 by only a shadow
What would I give to live where you are, What would I pay to stay here beside you What would I do to see you, smiling at me Where would we walk? Where would we run? If we could stay all day in the sun Just you and me and I could be, part of your world I don't know when, I don't know how But I know something's starting right now Watch and you'll see Someday I'll be Part of your world. Hopefully everyone can recognize this song. ...
May 22, 2005 by only a shadow
I have a friend… no, not just a friend; he is my best friend. He has been my best friend since we were little… since 1st grade. This friend wants to be more than friends… I love my friend… he means everything to me. He and Shaun loved me when everyone else would. He let me cry on his shoulder, when most everyone else called me a baby. He has always been there for me… When old boyfriends told me they “loved me more than the world” and that I was “perfect in their eyes” he still was ...
May 19, 2005 by only a shadow
Before we met, I wish you saw me in a different light. Before you touched me, I wish you saw me in a different light. Before our lips touched, I wish you saw me in a different light. Before you said, “I love you”, I wish you saw me in a different light. Before we stumbled upon that fight, I wish you saw me in a different light. Before you said, “It’s over, we’re though”, I wish you saw me in a different light. Before you walked across that stage, I wish you saw me in ...
May 19, 2005 by only a shadow
The universe has stopped, All time stands still. This love still burns in my heart, As if it was God’s will. The clock is not ticking, There is no time to kill. You make my entire world stop, As if it was God’s will. You need not say a word, To find the silence and fill You need only to speak with your heart, As if it was God’s will. Love will always prevail And time is stopped until, I find the courage to tell you, That I know God’s will. Sigh, it hurts to be in lov...