The mere thoughts that reside in my mind.
Or just spring?
Published on April 8, 2005 By only a shadow In Personal Relationships
Love is something so beautiful, words cannot accurately describe it. But, the true question is… when do you know you’re in love? Deep down that seems to be the only question I have to ask.

There is a guy, he is absolutely perfect. He is handsome, extremely academic, funny, kind… everything anyone could ever ask for. But, it’s not like I have had feelings for him forever… I just noticed who he truly was one day and wanted to know him.

But, he’s never talked to me… ever. We are not necessarily “friends”, but neither enemies. I want to try to introduce myself and who I am… but I don’t want to come off as a freak. I think I might have already, because I wrote him telling him I wanted to know him better and that I wanted him to come watch my solo. Let’s just say he never watched the solo (Thank God) and he hasn’t talked to me. Things aren’t looking positive.

Then, if we do become close, I don’t know if I want to fall in love.

It’s spring, I can’t tell if I am in lust or not.

~Shadows

Comments
on Apr 08, 2005
I think you're infatuated.
on Apr 08, 2005
True love usually implies there is some sort of communication going on. If he doesn't know you exist really, or does know but doesn't bother to accept your invitations, then I think you may just be sexually attracted to him.
on Apr 08, 2005
Heh, heh....love exists...true love even. It's hard to tell....but you'll find out eventually.

(You seem familiar....I think I know you....just a hunch, anyway)

~Zoo
on Apr 08, 2005
Sounds like lust to me, but don't knock it. Admire him from afar but don't get too wound up about it, if he notices you fine, but if he doesn't don't push it.
You go through a lot of crushes like that when you're young and the real thing comes along as a pleasant suprise when you least expect it (as oppose to a suprise that come along when you most expect it?!...err I think you know what I mean anyway)

Cheers,

Toblerone
on Apr 12, 2005
You do sound infatuated with him,if he hasn't bothered to reply to you even after reading you letter. I don't think he is really worth your effort, sweetie. Don't lose sleep over him.