I don't want to deal with it....
There’s a party tonight. I have decided not to go for two reasons…
Three guys have asked me to go with them; I have told each of them I am going to go solo this time… They are all friends of mine, and I don’t want them to try to start a relationship with me there. I have been trying to heal from a disastrous relationship for 4 months now, and getting into another doesn’t sound like such a good idea… especially with friends.
Then there is my disastrous relationship. For the past… I don’t know…. 4 months now he has been hanging all over his ex right in front of me, who I believed was a good friend of mine. I have dealt with it too much now… it has finally driven me away. I am sick of looking at it… I mean, he dumped me for her… and will rub it in my face during every possible chance he has. I don’t know if he is going to go tonight or not… so just to be safe, I’m not.
Arg… does anyone else have a relationship like this!
The future seems so overwhelming… up until now I have tried my hardest not to let anything get under my skin. I have given up now… I have learned just to avoid everything.
~Shadows