So, you lie once… no big deal. But why don’t you lie twice? Why don’t you just drag someone down with false hopes of being a friend? Do you know how much that hurts? To say that you want to talk to me, and never follow through. Ever…
I know that I was never pretty enough for you… that’s why I always wear makeup.
I know that I was never thin enough for you… that’s why I run and work out everyday, and sometimes don’t even eat.
I know that I was never smart enough for you… that’s why I get erratic when I get an A-.
I know that I was never perfect for you… that is why I cry every night while I fall asleep.
I know that I wasn’t good enough for you… but why in the hell do you keep taunting me?
God, do you know how I feel? Can you see the pain? Do you know why I act eccentric when you are in the room? It’s so you will never know the pain I feel. It’s so I can keep my pride. I know that you never cared about anything we had… the love (or lust in your fucking case), the friendship… it’s all worthless to you. You have Stacey… just go. She’s liked you… I don’t know, forever. And she’s the reason we are not together anymore.
Here is a poem I wrote for you senior night… I cried while I wrote this. But I sucked it up and got on, I wouldn’t let her ruin us. But, I couldn’t take it anymore when you started to trust her more than you trusted me…. So I told you how I felt. And I guess you realized the truth and broke up with me. I guess you couldn’t handle the truth.
Just Go
You said that you were different,
From the love of my past.
You said that you wouldn’t do it,
And this relationship would last.
You told me you loved me,
And I thought that you were true.
I say that because you look at that girl,
And I know she means something to you.
Go ahead, I can live without a man,
I can find another love, I know I can.
So take her home, kiss her goodnight,
Then come back to me, so we can have another fight.
Boss me around, push me out the door,
I don’t give a f***, and I won’t take it anymore.
So say that you love me, one more time,
And go to that girl, and tell her your mine.
Don’t drive her home, or talk to her again,
Then come back to me, like it should have been.
Then I can decide, if you are really worth,
All the pain, I have to endure.
It’s hard to sit and hear you whisper in my ear,
And stare at the girl, who seems to top all my fears.
You will be taken away, I know you will.
Another dumb broad will take you still.
It’s happened before, and it will happen again,
I just wish this time… it wasn’t with my best friend
I hope you find this… just so you know exactly what I felt when you wouldn’t tell her to back off of you.
~Shadow