My best friend confronted me… about how much he really liked me.
Do you know how hard it is? To hurt someone that close to you by saying that you don’t care for them like that?
BUT… even though I said I didn’t like him like that, there are a few things that I know I won’t do.
1. I won’t lead him on by saying, “I think we need to be better friends before we can start a relationship".
2. I won’t hang all over an ex-boyfriend when he’s around
3. I won’t tell him how much I care and never talk to him
5. I won’t lie to him
6. I won’t treat him like an inferior
… and last but not least, I would never, EVER abandon him. When I say he is my friend, I mean that… and I do not treat my best friends the way I was treated by people who claimed to have “cared”.
I had my head against his shoulder almost in tears… and the last thing I told him was, “The last reason why I don’t want to be in a relationship with is because… I don’t want to fall in love. It only ends with broken hearts… and if you and I ever ended up like Alex and I, I would never forgive myself… I love you too much. And I love you to the point that I never even want to come remotely close to hating each other… you mean too much to me.”
I hope that he understands… I care too much about our friendship now, and I don’t think I would risk it to have it any other way.
~Shadow
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