Does anyone familiarize music with certain memories they have? Our musical ensemble is playing this piece called “Flight of Valor”, we played it last season and since we started playing it again, I can only think about one person when we play it. It’s not like I WANT to think about him; it’s just that I do. Him and I concluded that this song was a perfect interpretation of our relationship about a year ago… it was fun, but we both went our separate ways. I found another guy, which I n...

Everyone has found me… we’ll, if I never told you about my blog in the first place, that means I never wanted you to find it. So if you did find it, I really don’t care… but now I only have to watch what I write. So I can’t post half the stuff I post anymore because I will probably piss someone off. You know what, it’s all your guys’ fault if you don’t like what I have to say, alright? I am sick and tired of people nosing around in shit they don’t need to know about and criticizing me a...

So, you lie once… no big deal. But why don’t you lie twice? Why don’t you just drag someone down with false hopes of being a friend? Do you know how much that hurts? To say that you want to talk to me, and never follow through. Ever… I know that I was never pretty enough for you… that’s why I always wear makeup. I know that I was never thin enough for you… that’s why I run and work out everyday, and sometimes don’t even eat. I know that I was never smart enough for you… that’s why I...

Pretending to be the person I’m not Wondering from here to there Having no sense of true direction No one to hold my hand No one to call me angel Only the empty faces The empty faces I see day to day Hearing their awful mockery Only when my back is turned But with my ears completely open What is so wrong with me, That I cannot amount to even be a friend? What have I done to all those empty faces The faces were never there and saw what was done. They never cared when they saw...

On an empty hill side, Somewhere far away. Where the stars shine without a doubt, Is where I’ll live someday. In an empty house, Somewhere bright and new. Where I can wish upon every star, And never have to look at you. In an empty room, Looking at the burning flame. Wondering what I am going to do next, And why I am living in such shame. Sitting on an empty chair, Listening to the sound of death. Dreaming about those who told me goodbye, Wishing I would take my last brea...

I am temporarily (probably permanently) leaving JU. Dear someone, I am running away again. The problem was there on the table for us to resolve, but we both turned our heads. I can’t read anything you write, that is why I am leaving. You seemed to have wanted me out of your life completely… so I am cutting off this last form of communication between us. I hope that you are happy now that I am completely gone. We never even got to say goodbye… good or bad, I still find that a l...

I am too bad for the good girls. I have made out with guys, I curse, I am mean… most of the good girls get mad at me and tell me that I am “such a bad person for saying the stuff I say”. I am too good to be a bad girl. I don’t drink or smoke enough, I get good grades, and enjoy studying. They would think I’m a poser. I am not preppy. I don’t play basketball, volleyball, or softball… so that knocks me out right there. I belong nowhere. I don’t fit in. I can’t do anythi...

Tomorrow I take my ACT for the first time. Does anyone have any good advice or tips for taking it? I have never taken a strait 4-hour test before. The OGT took a total of 12 and a half hours, but that was 2 and a half hours a day for 5 consecutive days… and I never even used most of that time. It took me about 45 minutes to complete the math section (double checking answers and everything); which is my poorest subject… and I still received an advanced rating. Math tends to be my stro...

Everyone has heard the song “You Shook Me All Night Long” by AC/DC. Well, there is a story behind that song for me. I absolutely love the song and I always have. Well, going to an Academic Challenge tournament I was listening to the CD in my walkman and started singing. My best friend told me to stop singing it and I take off my headphones and go, “Why? The first time I have sex I want this song to be playing…” She gave me a really weird look and says, “How does that not surprise me y...

I am not as dumb as you guys think. I have a plan. I make good friends with the people of the younger classes. They actually respect me… look up to me… and I like them as people. They don’t lie, deceive, or turn around and stab your back! It’s the people in my class and older who are the bitches and bastards! And besides… I am going to get close (personally) to some of them, and maybe not so close with others. I will be there and offer to be the best friend they ever had… I would...

The Merriam-Webster’s Colligate Dictionary defines the tern “modest” as: 1. Placing a moderate estimate on one’s abilities or worth 2. Neither bold nor self-assertive: Tending towards difference 3. Arising from or characteristic of a modest nature 4. Observing the properties of dress and behavior: Decent 5. Limited in size, amount, or scope 6. Unpretentious Having defined that, are you modest? At least in some aspects of your life… Do you wear revealing clothes? Do you even r...

Days go by and I see your face. I stare at you, and look for a trace, Of an old love that we used to share, And to see if you really even care. Not that I love you again, and neither do you, I just want to know if I was built on lies or truth. Did you really mean it when you looked in my eyes And told me that you would never say goodbye? My heart is made of ice cold stone. And all you’ve done has just left me alone I wonder why you can hurt me so And leave me here with no place...

Just be yourself. I am tired of people posing as people they know they're not. Don't pretend to be a musician... when you can't play music. Don't pretend to be a friend... when you're never there. Don't pretend to be a singer... when you choke on your own words. Don't pretend to be so strong... when you can't take the blame for what you've done Don't pretend to be so innocent... when it is you who has lied all along. Just keep on pretending that you've never met me... that is the w...

Women are not as seriously thought of as the weaker sex in America as we are in the rest of the world. I think about women who are not as fortunate as I living a life of fear in Bulgaria and Egypt. They need help. That is why Valentines Day is also known as V-Day. V-Day is a worldwide activist movement that raises money for groups trying to end violence against women. It is not only celebrated on the 14th of February, but through February and March. V-day events are held periodically ...